what a night!

the night i just experienced tonight couldn't wait til the morning for me to blog about it because it was just that much fun! I havent had much real fun since ive been in school and coming back home on break and having a blast with the people who made me the happiest when i was home is a true blessing.

my night started on christmas night and didn't end til now (2:36 am 12-26-11) but it still qualifies as christmas to me! i loved this night so much that i purposely didnt take any pictures or try to remember it any other way besides reaching into the corners of my mind and thinking on these priceless moments that i cherish so dearly. the black "X's" that the bouncer put on my hands because im too young to drink are still lingering on my skin hours later. i didnt even bother to shower because im not ready to wash the night off of me! i wanted this night to last forever, being with people who are like me and who i can truly be myself around is a beautiful thing. the conversation i have with these magnificent people (Danny and Jeremy) is amazing! from religion to music to just about everything in between makes me so happy. the night looked dull at first because our original plan got cancelled but that didnt stop these "night-riders" from taking the night by the horns and making it our bitch.

nights like these make me miss home even more when im at school, but i guess when im not here painting the town red i need to take my paint brush and color atlanta with my own special touch! this is a memory that is here to stay and im grateful for it! thanks guys for being there! oh and remember it's the spontaneous moments not the planned ones that leave a big impact on your life i think. so be ready for anything! goodnight :)

MY FIRST VLOG!!!

was a fail...it was a pretty bad video anyway but i was super excited to do it that i didn't care how it looked! be on the lookout for a real video blog!

I'm So Grateful

just when you've given up all hope a fresh breath of wind comes and gives you the strength you need to carry on. I recently just got a huge gush of wind that revitalized me! i'm so extremely happy right now because i had seriously fallen into a place where i didn't want to even try any more. I'm so grateful this person has come into my life and i think they're going to be here for a long time.

maybe it's love. too soon to tell, but the chances are high. <3

WOW

I wish that i could relive this night again. I've had so much fun and I love being around people that i actually enjoy being around and vice versa. I didn't necessarily "let loose" but it felt like I did because I don't have school work to deal with, I'm single and i dont have to report to someone every hour, i'm young and i'm truly learning the perks of what being young are, and most importantly i cherish the moments that I have with the few people i consider my friends here at school. hopefully next semester continues to be a blast, I don't even know why this night has been so exhilarating, but i'm so fortunate that it was! I haven't had many times like this so far, this makes me extremely happy for the future.

In case you were wondering

It's finals week soooooooo that's why i haven't updated in a while, but get at me in a couple days! smooches <3

Am I Serious?

Sometimes when I'm by myself my mind starts to wander and I give certain thoughts more attention than others, but the thought that has been festering in my mind for the past 3 days has really got a hold on me.

I've been thinking that I'm ready to settle down.....possibly marriage, but for sure with someone i love and understands me because I don't date a lot and I really just want someone who is serious and can be okay with being in it for the long haul. I know this all sounds bizarre considering I'm only 19 years old, but even from the few past relationships I have been in I always consciously and unconsciously look for marriage material. I remember talking to a close friend of mind about it and he said that I should stop thinking that way and just "go in for the kill." First of all I'm not that kind of guy, I'm still a virgin and i will be until I personally comfortable and it would only be with the person who I think would be the person I would spend the rest of my life with.

I've been a virgin for 19 years, it's not going to kill me if I wait longer. I'm in no rush.

I think part of this has to do with me being a hopeless romantic and watching too many movies (The Notebook, Blue Valentine, Away We Go, etc.) thinking, hoping, praying, and wishing that it will happen to me in the future. Sooner rather than later of course. I'm a good person and I'm committed to whoever I'm with i guess people don't want that nowadays. I know exactly how I want to live my life and I would love someone to share that with.

This is weird....

I've been having the weirdest rush of emotions lately, I might be unstable. I'm not sure if it's from me weening myself from my alcohol addiction with coffee and sleeping pills (Ambien, anyone? Or do you prefer Lunesta?), but my body is acting very suspicious lately....and i dont trust it anymore :)

what i think is causing this is that I'm listening to Lionel Richie.....just some theories.

It's Easy

it's quite simple.
if you believe, really believe.
if you have faith, rely on it.
if you pray, really mean it.
if you love, love with all of yourself.
if it's in you, it will come out.
simple as that.

Comes To The Light

think for the better.
be positive for yourself.
be your first friend.
eventually everything comes to the light.

make the best of it all.
smile with your heart.
remember it's going to be just fine.
because...
eventually everything comes to the light.


Peace and Blessings

Don't override other's power...unless completely necessary

i am always a very chill, very lax person. i don't go looking for trouble and i often avoid conflict, but its different when i see the potential harm to someone that i LOVE. I find it extremely hard to sit back and watch disaster ensue if i know that there is something that i can do about it!

there is no one more important to me than my family and when i can help i help as much as possible. the only problem is when it okay to "go over someone's head," for lack of a better term? I think that that line between being an asshole and trying to prevent imminent death is pretty huge. call it what you want i'm doing what i need to do to keep my family safe. also, when i do so don't get mad and say that i'm undermining your authority or saying you are inept. WELL! did you ever think that you may not be as good at this as you think? i not asking you if you want my help i'm giving it to you because it's pretty damn obvious that you need it. regardless if you want it!

i know this is one of my more "aggressive" posts, but i need to just get this out of my head so i can carry on with what i need to do!

OMG

wow...i can't believe i did that. That was pretty much the most exhilarating thing i've done in college!!! it was much to most, but it was super intense! so much passion!

seriously?

how long do you wait before you realize you've been stood up?

how to descirbe it?

i'm feeling a huge amount of emotions right now in my life. i'm starting college tomorrow and im not surehow to say all the other stuff going on with me. Jeez

Embrace it!

If you can't be happy with the way you are people will be able to see your insecurities for clearly as you try to cover them up. I've learned (the hard way) that the way you are is the way you are, you can try and change it but it won't happen. You will only fool people for only so long before they realize the true you.

In my life, I know what kind of person I am, and now I'm really starting to come into my own. Not worring about what others are going to say, but just embracing ME! People's opinions shouldn't restrict you from saying or doing what you want to say or do! You are only hurting yourself with the facade you portray to people.

I'm so happy to say that I am very pleased with the place I'm in in my life. Never forget you are who you are.