Sometimes when I'm by myself my mind starts to wander and I give certain thoughts more attention than others, but the thought that has been festering in my mind for the past 3 days has really got a hold on me.
I've been thinking that I'm ready to settle down.....possibly marriage, but for sure with someone i love and understands me because I don't date a lot and I really just want someone who is serious and can be okay with being in it for the long haul. I know this all sounds bizarre considering I'm only 19 years old, but even from the few past relationships I have been in I always consciously and unconsciously look for marriage material. I remember talking to a close friend of mind about it and he said that I should stop thinking that way and just "go in for the kill." First of all I'm not that kind of guy, I'm still a virgin and i will be until I personally comfortable and it would only be with the person who I think would be the person I would spend the rest of my life with.
I've been a virgin for 19 years, it's not going to kill me if I wait longer. I'm in no rush.
I think part of this has to do with me being a hopeless romantic and watching too many movies (The Notebook, Blue Valentine, Away We Go, etc.) thinking, hoping, praying, and wishing that it will happen to me in the future. Sooner rather than later of course. I'm a good person and I'm committed to whoever I'm with i guess people don't want that nowadays. I know exactly how I want to live my life and I would love someone to share that with.
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